last blog for credit. ever.

this is really, really sad.

this blog's been an incredible thing for me, even if i haven't done much of it this year. it's been a great outlet along with a great excuse to get myself a good grade. i'd just like to thank you for having me do these, because they helped me when i needed to be all teenagery and express myself and grow as a person and all of that dumb crap. it was a fantastic experience.

well, anyway:

100 for today for my mesmerizing workshop-taking skills. he was, like, a 6.5 out of a ten. if you can't find anyone else, it'll work.

i'm glad to leave. i'm sad to leave. i still haven't fully realized it yet, though. it feels like the end of an era. most high school kids don't take graduation that seriously, so i don't know if i'm overreacting (like i do with most things). the whole idea of college has been impounded into my brain since i was 14 years old. it's three years later. i'm in. it doesn't feel like as big of an accomplishment as it should be. i seriously can't fathom how a lot of kids my age don't think of college as a make-or-break kind of thing; it's really weird.

all i'm hoping for is that i'm not as completely mortified to start college as i was to start high school. if i close up like that again i'll be incredibly disappointed with myself. here's hoping, because being me would be pretty great. also looking forward to summer, so there's that, too.

farewell, blog. our hatelationship has finally drawn to a whiny end.

k bye

what can i say at this point?

100 for tuesday for cleaning up, then dressy dinner.

I AM A COLLEGE FRESHMAN. i'm going to college. help.

100 for wednesday for flipping audition night.

so, it sort of sucked a lot. lesson learned and poor michelle. i love her.

100 for today for the photoshoot for the freshman showcase.

did it. everyone is done but fi's. i don't know when she is coming back but we'll do it then.

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doin' it rite.

100 for today, for sitting through that massacre that was the film guy's audition class. really? 'you've SEEN citizen kane?' yeah. so have millions of people. it's been around for a while.

the whole experience of the freshmen showcase taught me a lot. it taught me about working with people and how to not direct something. so, that was good.

also, 100 on friday and thrusday for the showcase.

it's really starting to end.

105 for today (wednesday) and yesterday.

here's hoping.

great fucking day

100 for tech

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100 for being on honor roll, getting edumacated with foods, and finding costumes for my actors.

Tech week is fast-approaching and we're not ready. Like, we're really, really not ready. I'm sort of freaked out. I just want to take all of Monday afternoon to just rip their shit apart and make a collage of a play-y bits. You know. It might happen. Maybe.

Nah, it will.

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Participation -- 100 for doing moments, generally rehearsing without shooting them in the face.

So, today was interesting. I casually ask my actors what their super objectives were...and they didn't know. Needless to say, I was pissed. Frustrated and pissed. I was wondering what wasn't working because there seemed to be a pretty sizable disconnect from what they thought was happening and what was actually happening in rehearsal. I wasn;t an acting major for too long but I certainly know it doesn't take more than 20 minutes to do action sheets for a ten-minute play. But, I digress:

I'm cutting my losses at this point and just literally telling them everything I want them to do. Every movement, choice, character work and anything else I can think of; completely going for broke. I'm literally puppeteering. It's not going as well as I wanted it to but if the show happens, it happens and that is my goal. Hoping it will be as good as possibly it can be.