and so it goes again and again and again

meisner is so depressing. never take that shit to heart.

100 for today, did some nasty-ass studying and some nasty-ass meisner with le freshmen. i really think they're going to be amazing. also, i need to do more so i can be better at it. it just did not feel right and didn't let anything hit me. peculiar feeling, man. sebastian already rocks so hard.

i haven't really studied for much this year and this feels quasi-not horrible. not really, but it'll happen.

it's all winding down and that is a horrifying, great feeling.

100 for today for rehearsal

100 for yesterday for having a part in mainstage and getting all accquainted with that!

It will be a long four months.

I mean five?! Fuck my life. HIgh school is stupid.

Anyway, 100 for getting a nice handwritten postcard from the guy I interviewed with in NY at UNCSA. He thanked me for "your nice email." Narg, life is good. Being accepted somewhere would be better. Plus filming.

ANyway, on to Master Harold and the Boys:

So yeah, Hally's a yuppie poophead with a sick father and the two workers are all blahblah i'm an uneducated minority, blahblah. blahblah, i can't articulate things well. nothing past that so far.

i hope you missed my enticing rhetoric.

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100 for today for SMing the rehearsal today.

Journal tomorrow.

Master Harold

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100 for accepting TD position, participating awesomely in class, and finding a costume for the film (along with helping to film it).

I read the Preface, or little author's thing to Master Harold... today and it looks really intriguing. I've heard a lot about the racial divide in South Africa so I'm pretty siked to read it. Plus, I have a friend from Cape Town. Plus, Danny Glover was in it...how could it not be amazing?

It describes what the the play's about, and it gives a lot of background to the 'apartheid' (segregation) there around the time Athol Fugard was a young man; it was a lot like the American Civil Rights struggle except it lasted for hundreds of years and really had the biggest change when Nelson Mandela was elected to office. I did some googlinh and it's dissipated since then, so that's good.

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uncsa interview today, so 100 for that.

100 for this week for -- talking to Whitney Frazier yesterday and starting like an emaily relationship with her?, getting my letters of rec sealed, for starting my papers earlier this week. please don't fail me.

i wanted to go to the dance concert but my fucking interview was today too, so i couldn't. i need that fucking extra credit. goddamnit.

i'm a disappointment.

katelin said i should be hearing from them within two weeks of interviewing, so. craziness abound! wish meh luck.

let me just note, also, that on a whole my journals have been so uninspired and gross. i'm disappointed.

so, uh...today's first.

100 for really taking movement seriously and actually participating with dedication. I also realized just how weak I am. Like, really? I'm that fat that I feel tired after five real pushups? Really? But anyway, movement was super fun and I enjoyed making the dancers uncomfortable.

I did one of those horrible cries today because I'm going back and forth as to if I'll get into college or not. I really do not think I will, but I'm trying my fucking damnedest at this point.

AIA:

So Act II is getting pretty crazy with the AIDS, random park sex out of anger and frustration, Louis' emoness talking to Emily the Nurse, various fights between couples and such. It's pretty great.

Can I just say how beautifully this is written? I can't get over it, legit. Kushner is just unbelievably gifted and makes everything simultaneously relate-able and metaphorically complex. It's some good stuff. I might have to check out A Bright Room Called Day, I heard some stupid drama club in east brunswick did it.