i suck at conveying me

and that sucks all in itself


Movement: jumping to the beatles
Voice: Bernarda Alba the musical (no, im not joking. horrible idea. one good song)
Reading: msnd
Participation: 100

for 90% finishing my ipa/conno/denno

its not good that i come off as someone who doesnt know themself

i can't tell you how much that fucking stinks


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i feel like crying right now


and beating someone


i just


headdesk


i feel like a loser


and a basket case


and why do i come off as gay? when did this start?

that whole situation was from a while ago, but still

do i just LOOK like a leasbian or something? not like its bad but

its not me


do i really look that butch and nasty? i mean i know im not fucking nicole kidman, but really?


not to say that lesbians are bitch and nasty, but you know what i mean.


i feel like a freak. and hopeless.


what the fuck is it? am i aiming too high? should i not try to have a nice teenagery life?


what am i doing wrong?


what am i not doing?


oh my god i dont want to be one of those losers who buy ten billion self help books when theyre fifty and who check their match.com's every two hours


oh my god


im fifteen and im already that


this is not good



i want to kick a puppy

i think im going crazy.


i think way too much and i want to cry all the time


and ill never be happy


how come all of these losers who act like ten yearolds have boyfriends? or had them?


and i dont?


do i look like a monster? am i really that despicable to look at?


god, im such a hypocrite


i dont have a fucking clue what im talking about


sorry hopey




peace